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Fearne Cotton's new book sheds light on the darker side of TV fame.
The British telly sweetheart – who's been in broadcasting since the age of 15 – reveals in new book Speak Your Truth that she was passed over for multiple gigs.
The former Celebrity Juice team captain, 39, adds that her "sacking" from a string of jobs plunged her into a confidence crisis.
Fearne these days has carved out a highly successful gig with her Happy Place podcast and best-selling self-help books, but she was left "wondering what was wrong with [her]" as her TV peers were offered jobs and she wasn't.
"Over the last few years I have slowly been less drawn to the jobs I had become known for," she writes.
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"I started feeling more and more physically uncomfortable with the roles I was taking on and started to question if I was right for them at all."
She adds: "I've been taken off (OK, sacked) from so many TV jobs over the last five years that I've lost count.
"I felt unloved and started to wonder what was wrong with me. Why were all of my peers getting jobs left, right and centre but not me? Was I faulty? Annoying? Dressing incorrectly? Asking the wrong questions?
"Or maybe, just maybe, this is a new path for me. My truth is exposing what I really enjoy and making space for more of it?"
Fearne began to question herself as she struggled to find TV work
She quit Celebrity Juice in 2018
And Fearne's taken strength from that realisation, seeing huge success away from her small screen career.
At the time of penning her new book, her Happy Place podcast – which she started in 2018 – boasts a staggering 33 million downloads.
Fearne also organises the Happy Place Festival, a "month-long festival promoting physical and mental wellbeing."
Fearne's podcast and self-help books boast huge followings
This comes after she shared on Angela Scalon's Thanks A Million podcast about her experiences of depression.
Fearne said: "[Depression] is a chapter that I often in my work talk around, but not really about it because there's so much of it that I'm still processing and still have a bit of a hangover with."
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